Who is More Important than Me?

     When I think of the goodness of God, I am overwhelmed.  No matter what I do, nothing can separate me from the love of God.  It amazes me that He will never leave or forsake me.  When I think of all the times I have pushed Him aside because I think I can do it on my own, I realize how selfish I am.  I wish there was a cure or a pill that I could take, that would cure me of my selfishness, but unfortunately there is not.  As I have walked with God over the years I have come to realize that the only way to get less self-centered is to center my life on God.  I need to put Him first in all things, even if I think I can handle it on my own.      I was talking to one of my pastors at my church and she said that she is asking God for more humility.  As we were talking I began to think about my life and my level of humility.  Quickly I realized that I have become very self-important lately.  While I am constantly asking God for help, I have been trying to get Him to help me with my plans.  I am so bad about wanting things my way…being selfish.  My prayer over the years has been for God to use me, and He has used me.  Whenever I begin something new I always ask God for guidance on how to approach the situation.  However, after I have started it I don’t constantly seek His guidance for everything because I start to “figure it out” on my own.
     Throughout everything I spend time with Him through worship and reading the Word, but sometimes I get too busy to spend time listening to Him.  There is so much He wants to tell me, but I only have a few minutes each day to listen because I have other things to do.  How arrogant am I to tell God that I don’t have time for Him?  How much more selfish can I be?  God sent His Son who died on the cross so I could have a relationship with Him, and I can’t even sacrifice an hour of my time.  I despise my flesh and while I wish I could change it, I know that I can’t.  The only one that can change me is God.
     So that’s it.  Today, I am taking a stand against myself and “planting a flag” on my heart for Jesus.  I am declaring that He is my everything and I am committing to spend at least one hour each day with Him through worship, prayer, and listening to His voice.  I am tired of doing it on my own and am ready to rely completely on God.  My prayer is that as I draw close to Him that He draws closer to me.  After all, what else is there to live for?  NOTHING!!